Changing the way you think people look at you

My way of thinking for many years was that I was seen as a circus side show. I was an oddity that drew people’s attention and I hated it. I thought the world had labeled me as a freak.

As a young girl it was hard to see a positive of my extraordinary appearance. When I started to become taller than most of my class I was picked on a great deal. And a lot of people treated me differently because I was different only in appearance. And I didn’t get or want any of the attention. All I wanted to be was normal.

For years I tried to squish myself down and dress to hide. I would slouch in my seat, hunch when I walked, and wore drab, baggy clothing. I was quiet and withdrawn to the world. But at home I was a vibrant girl that loved bright colors, crazy patterns, and things like lava lamps, psychedelic posters, and dancing to pop music videos. I was hiding who I really was, for fear of standing out more than I already did because I thought people would laugh at me and pick on me.


I wish I knew then, what I know now. That the world did not look at me like a freak. It actually looked at me like a beautiful red rose in a sea of daisies. I wasn’t something to be shunned like I had thought for so long, but infact something that would be admired. As I learned to take more pride in myself, and what made me stand out, the world started to open up. Sure I still got the “Holy crap, you’re huge!” every once in a while. But I learned to laugh at those. Because for every one of those not so nice comments, I got 10 “Man I wish I had your height!” or “Have you ever thought about modeling?!”. I still don’t know how to answer to those compliments. I usually just blush and say thank you. But I never feel my response is enough.


I will openly admit I still have my days where I cower away from things due to mental blocks I have caused in myself. I one day hope to get the confidence to take partners dance classes. As I have always loved to dance. I know a few friends of mine who are reading this and rolling their eyes at me being afraid of doing such a thing. And they and even I know.. it’s all in my head!

But when I walk into a club, our a lounge, packed full of of people I stand tall in confidence that I am not one of the crowd. Many times have people approached me to compliment me on my height. And many guys have bought me drinks because they thougth I was unique and exotic. Other tall girls give me high fives and we cheer each other on. Like we are in some unique club that bonds us without even knowing each other.

Life is an amazing experience and I feel blessed to be able to stand out from the crowd. I dress in stylish clothes, I wear stylish accessories (stylish darling, not designer ;)), I go to stylish places! I love living in the city and being surrounded by people. When I take a minute and think back I can actually find ways my height has helped me get a lot of the amazing things (if not all) that I have today. And I will forever use it to my advantage.

Who knew that such a small change in my head of how I thought the world looked at me… could change so much. You may think that people think something negative… but what does that get you? Try thinking positive for a while and see how that goes! Remember, you are a red rose in a sea of daisies. You are special, you are beautiful, you are unique. Live it, love it, and use it to reach the stars. You are technically already closer than most people by being taller then they are!! ;)

Much Love.
Your’s Truly,
Amber